The continued kissing that travels along his face causes Leon's eyes to fall half closed. As much as he's trying to track Raihan's every move without allowing himself to miss anything, it's just as tempting to close his eyes and simply feel the affection he's being given. It's different and new and nerve wracking but he doesn't want it to stop, either.
The breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding shudders its way out of him in a sigh, tilting his head into the hand still cradling it.]
[ Raihan's eyes have long since fallen closed as he loses himself in doting affection onto Leon. he never thought he'd find himself being able to do this, and he's finding himself craving more with each passing moment. he has to remember to keep some semblance of calm, but he also wants to hear Leon say his name like that more.
he trails a kiss to his upper neck before moving back up, nuzzling close to his ear as Leon had to him. is it revenge? maybe a little. ]
[Leon nods, unable to help the way he gasps slightly when he’s nuzzled like that. He’s quickly noticing how well Raihan was able to keep his potential reactions to things in check, something Leon is uh...struggling with much more considering he’s definitely more tipsy than Raihan ever got. There’s also a difference in the fact he’s not even really trying to hide it but you know, details.]
I...yeah, more than...
[It’s way more than okay. He honestly feels like he’d be fine with Raihan just kissing him sober, he doesn’t care how long it takes. Meanwhile, he’ll take advantage of the fact that Leon moved in at an angle that allows him to return the favor a little with a kiss against his cheekbone.]
[ every sound and movement that Leon is making in response to him drives him further, wanting to hear and feel more of him. he has a hard stop in mind for how far he's willing to go with Leon like this... but right now, exploring each other is good enough for him. ]
Yeah. [ it's all he'll allow himself for now. he wants to have this conversation when they're both fully present. ] Me either.
[ unable to keep himself away from his lips for too long, he pulls away just enough to kiss him properly again - less rushed this time, and quite affectionate with the way the hand in his hair gently tangles his locks between his fingers. with the way he kisses him, it's hard to assume that he hasn't been wanting this for some time. ]
[Raihan may have to be the one who puts on the breaks eventually, depending. Leon is just too inebriated to really care as much, he's certain he wouldn't mind anything Raihan did with him right now but, still. Baby steps. They can't be putting the cart before the Mudsdale, here.
Another soft sound escapes Leon just seconds before his lips are sealed and he's quieted (mostly), content to settle into the pace of Raihan's slow, languid kissing.
It's enough to get Leon to relax even further, if that's possible, letting his hand shift from the back of Raihan's neck to instead cup the side of his face for a moment so he can feel the sharp slope of his jawline.
How long does it take to sober up is the next question on his mind, albeit a very distant one.]
[ he knows that there has to be a limit to how far he goes with Leon - at least, with the other man in a state like this. kissing and petting was probably already too much without both of them in sound mind, but he hadn't been able to help himself. couple that with the sounds that Leon keeps making... he has to keep reminding himself to take it slow. no matter how good this feels, he can't lose himself in that longing he's been holding back for years.
he breaks their kiss reluctantly, but not without a gentle, playful nip to his lower lip. he makes sure he stays close, too comfortable in Leon's hold to stray completely away from it. ]
You need to sober up. [ he sighs softly, squeezing the hand held in his. ] It's not that I don't believe you, it's just... you know.
[He knows...he just wishes he could go back in time and tell himself to lay off the beer before it was too late. Then again, would this have happened at all if he'd done that? It's a blessing and a curse, so he's just going to have to be patient.
It's Leon's turn to sigh- far more dramatic than it would be if he were sober- but he's at least placated by the fact that Raihan is still nearby. The closeness is nice, even if they're not actively spending that kissing more.]
Yeah...yeah.
[His speech is nowhere near as slurred as it was, but he's still more than a little giddy, notable in the lilt in his tone and the way he can't seem to stop smiling either.]
[ the dramatics of his exasperation makes Raihan laugh, tilting his head down to try to stifle it. the closeness is nice, and he's not sure he's ready to give it up just yet. at the very least, he doesn't think he can deny that both of them are craving some form of intimacy with each other. that can take plenty of forms. ]
I dunno, cuddle and watch a movie?
[ it's half joking, but it's also the best suggestion he has. the other options are sending Leon to bed to sleep it off like a petulant child, or just staring at each other awkwardly - neither sounds like a good option. ]
[I mean, if Raihan wants to try to deal with Leon demanding Raihan join him in bed then he's welcome to attempt that route...it's doubtful that would end well for either of them right now. The suggestion of a movie seems to be well received though as Leon sits back a little, aiming to place himself more alongside Raihan instead of practically in his lap so he isn't tempted to keep kissing him for longer.]
That sounds like a right idea, actually.
[It isn't going to be long before the adrenaline that all of this has kicked up wears off, and it's highly likely Leon might actually just pass out on the couch. The sooner that happens, the better.]
[ he can already predict how that would go, and he'd rather nix the idea now before it gets out of hand - he's already realized how vulnerable he is to Leon's incredibly potent sad Yamper eyes. this feels like a happy medium, and all the easier to get comfortable with, especially if Leon falls asleep on him.
he leans back a little more into the corner of the couch, hesitating only for a moment before deciding to extend an arm over Leon's shoulders to keep him reasonably close. he's sure that he can feel the way his heart is thumping in his chest, but it probably won't come as much of a surprise by now. ]
How about an old classic?
[ he boots up his streaming service of choice, scrolling down to his pick - the self-discovery story of the trials and tribulations of a pro athlete stuck in a rut in his career, brought back to the sport that made him famous by the rascally Sbugs Scorbunny and his animated friends to save the world from a villainous team of alien Pokémon from beyond the stars.
[OF COURSE IT'S SPACE JAM...It does serve their purposes well though as something easy to watch to pass the time.
With Raihan making the move to wrap an arm around Leon's shoulders, the fact that something more is going on here has been heavily underlined. It's unlikely Leon is drunk enough to forget the events of this evening by morning, but should things happen to be hazy, their closeness will leave nothing to the imagination.
He wouldn't have it any other way.
Leon is quick to settle in against Raihan's side, leaning against him with his head once again resting against his shoulder. He can feel the hammering of his heart, but if anything it just makes him feel better about the way his own is racing uncontrollably. They're in good company when it comes to nerves.]
Why am I not surprised? I've lost count of how many times we've seen this one.
[ considering their low-key makeout session, Raihan has quickly come to the realization that perhaps he was wrong about Leon not reciprocating what he thought was an unrequited crush. he hasn't had a moment to really think on it - his mind is too busy swirling with anxiety about what's going to come (or not come) out of this. he'll have to be patient about it, and more importantly, honest. surely he can't chalk all of what Leon has said tonight to a drunken stupor. ]
Yeah, 'cuz it's a cinematic masterpiece. [ and he's being completely, utterly sincere about that. ] You heard they're making a sequel, right?
[ they chatter idly like that through the movie's runtime, soft and laid-back as they were before things had gotten complicated. the physical contact between them is the only reminder that there's more they have to discuss, but this is an oddly relaxing moment between them that gives Raihan some peace of mind - that if what he wants their relationship to be does come to fruition, that it won't actually change much of the dynamic between them. the idea almost sounds too good to be true. ]
[It might not be making out, but it doesn't need to be. This is it's own form of intimacy charged with an energy that wouldn't be present if Leon hadn't drunkenly confessed his feelings not all that long ago. Only time will tell as to the validity of said drunken confession, but it doesn't seem like Leon's mind is going to change. Not if the way he's almost laying against Raihan is any indication, his voice low and breathy near his ear as he murmurs replies to whatever is said to him.
Leon makes it about a half hour into the movie before he stops talking, instead humming sounds of acknowledgement to let Raihan know he's listening. Minutes later even that stops as Leon lets sleep overtake him, his body relaxed and breathing even. He's easily pliable and probably won't complain to being moved if Raihan decides to try to usher him to bed.
The clock is ticking from here. Either things are destined to become so much more between them, or they'll both be in for a rude awakening once the haze of booze clears.]
[ the way Leon had confessed to him, inebriation notwithstanding, was as genuine as he always seemed to be with Raihan, and that much gives him hope that this is something that could really work. it won't really hit home until morning and they can speak to each other without restraint, but for once... he has hope about what this could be.
he feels the weight on his shoulder get heavier as Leon drifts into sleep, eventually looking down to see that he's dozed off. he had always seen an indescribable beauty in the other man's features, but they were particularly appreciable in the relaxation of sleep. it only reaffirms what he knows - he's fallen for him, hard. the next few hours will decide what that means for them.
he considers moving him, but he knows for a fact he isn't strong enough to carry him, which would mean rousing him from sleep. he looks so comfortable... it couldn't hurt to join him, so he lets his eyes fall shut. ]
[ he'd only meant to doze off with Leon for a moment, but the sleep he falls into is deep and long - at least a few hours, if he's correct about remembering the time that they started watching the movie. maybe it was longer than that... when Leon had started to move closer into his lap, each second felt like a lifetime.
he checks his phone when he rouses, slightly sore from the position he had fallen asleep in. it's the middle of the night, and his flat is dark aside from the potlights still on in the kitchen. Leon is still against him, heavy and asleep - hopefully his movements to try and stretch don't disturb him. ]
[Leon sleeps undisturbed for however many hours he and Raihan end up laying there together, content to slide further and further into his embrace until he's sleeping less on the couch and more on Raihan himself. He takes up plenty of room as it is, leaving Leon sleeping with his head against his collarbone. The heaviness of his sleep could be partially attributed to drinking, but it's also the first time he's slept in the company of someone else in literal years. Even during those rare times he could stay back home with his family weren't the same as this.
He might have continued to sleep on through the night if Raihan hadn't woken up before him, any slight movement on his part just enough to rouse him. His eyes open a sliver first, still heavy with sleep as his body fights to catch up with his waking mind. He's fortunate to not be waking up with a headache, but his mouth is dry...he could definitely use water before he winds up dehydrated. He swallows thickly a time or two, tempted to close his eyes again and let sleep once again overtake him...until he feels the steady rise and fall of the surface beneath him.
It all comes back in a trickle of memories as opposed to a flood as Leon wakes, the familiar buzz long gone now after sleeping. It feels like it could be morning, but with how dark it still is that's clearly not the case. It takes a moment for him to realize that Raihan shifting was what probably woke him up. Which means...
Leon leans back, enough so that he can look across (or, down) at Raihan and realize just how close they ended up. For a moment, his mouth works soundlessly, as if he's trying to find words that won't come. It's not hesitation stopping him; he just wants to say it right.]
[ though he had done his best to stay quiet and minute with his movements, Leon's position on him means that it's near impossible for Raihan to shift without taking him with him in some way. Raihan might be the taller between the two of them, but Leon has bulk - there isn't much grace or litheness in the way they're sprawled out together, but it's comforting and warm.
he pauses when he feels Leon begin to move, eyes trained on him to see what he does next. soon enough, he's looking up at Leon, the glazed, drunken look in his eyes having disappeared with sleep. he remembers their promise, and though he suddenly feels like he's frozen in place, he returns his gaze with a lazy smile. ]
[Raihan is a master at seeming cool in literally every situation, but if Leon knows him as well as he thinks he does...then he's on a razor's edge, waiting to see what he'll say next. He wasn't as drunk as Leon, so if he remembers then there's no way Raihan wouldn't.
Leon shifts to rest his hand against Raihan's chest, his fingers pressing in lightly against the material of his jacket. It's difficult to make his features out clearly in the semi-gloom of his place, but what little light is offered gives Leon plenty to work with. He's just as handsome as he ever was with a perpetual air of confidence that even Leon himself often felt jealous of.
He swallows again before sitting up a little further, his hair fanning out over his shoulders in long locks that trail against Raihan's front.]
Raihan...what I said earlier-
[Leon blinks hard, his eyes clear and his words coherent...though they aren't quite steady. There's a subtle tremor in his cadence, but it's not enough to stop him.]
I meant every word. I just wish it didn't take a beer for me to tell you.
[ cool as he may look outwardly, it doesn't mean he isn't writing internally, waiting to see if Leon will remember and reaffirm what he'd said earlier that evening. he doesn't want to push for it himself - he wants to hear everything from Leon. if he doesn't, he'll feel like he's convincing himself to see something that isn't there.
when they're close like this, he can see the features that he loves about Leon from a new perspective - the flecks of hazel in his golden eyes, his impossibly long lashes, tiny bits of stubble around the curves of where he usually shaves. he's sure that if he tried to list all of the things he admired about Leon, both physically and emotionally, he'd be able to talk for hours. ]
At least you managed to work up the nerve to say something... That's more than I can say for myself.
[ he chuckles with a self-deprecating edge, eyes casting down for a moment before he reaches out to tuck a loose strand of that long purple hair behind Leon's ear. ]
Do you have any idea how long I've fancied you for?
[It's Leon's turn to laugh, only his is more embarrassed than self-deprecating.]
Absolutely...no idea.
[WHICH...probably comes as little surprise. Leon would lose his own head if it weren't attached to his shoulders, and being quick on the uptake when it comes to subtle hints or- Arceus forbid- flirting is a little beyond him. Raihan obviously knew this, given how many years he's just existed in this bubble of liking Leon secretely.]
But I can imagine you must have felt the same way I did. ...do, in some ways.
[That deserves an explanation, which is at least short coming as Leon forces himself to hold Raihan's gaze, even if he's fairly sure his own is as vulnerable as it's ever been.]
That things would be different. ...or...change, and. Not...work, you know?
[ he doesn't sound particularly torn up about it - it's as he expected, and that's fine. with the foundations of their relationship having been built on their rivalry and their daily lives preoccupied with day-to-day responsibilities, paired with Leon's general airheadedness about things aside from battling, he hadn't expected Leon to pay mind to him in such a way. little did he know, the opposite was true.
he doesn't mind the vulnerability he sees in Leon's eyes. he cherishes it, in fact - it's a reassurance that both of them are equally delicate in this moment, and that's something that neither of them are used to being. ]
Didn't want to risk losing you, mostly. [ he smiles softly, tinged with melancholy. ] You're my friend first.
[Just the mere suggestion of losing Raihan...it makes Leon's chest tighten in a way he doesn't like at all. It's a very real fear that both of them have been grappling with in conjuction with their emotions, and it seemed like they had decided that preserving that relationship was more important than trying to see if they could make it blossom into something more.
Now, though? Things have changed. And Leon makes dead-sure Raihan can see for himself how serious he's being when he continues, his brow furrowing.]
I would sooner hang up my title as a trainer for good than leave you, Raihan. You mean so much to me that...I can't even imagine a world like that.
[His fingers tighten their grip on the loose material of his clothing, his heart making a sudden bid for his throat. Well, he wasn't emotional before and was doing a damn good job of holding it back but now the emotions are trying to eke out of him. He takes a breath- heavy and slightly shuddering- before he leans in to press a firm kiss to Raihan's lips.
He doesn't speak again until they've parted, their breath mingling.]
[ despite his own complete idiocy about the situation until this moment, Raihan understands now. while things aren't guaranteed to be completely smooth sailing if their relationship is changing, that isn't a reason to not give it their best shot. this is something they both want, and not acknowledging and acting on it would be a disservice to each other. ]
Even if I was a brooding idiot that couldn't talk to his crush about how he felt?
[ his smile widens as he takes in what Leon had said, but he doesn't have much time to do so before he's being kissed by him. though it takes him by surprise, it's only a split moment before he melts into it, eyes lowering as he returns the gesture. the Beautifly in his stomach are fluttering up a storm - even more so than their first kiss. ]
Yeah... neither am I. [ he tilts their foreheads together, his smile now ear-to-ear. ] I love you, too.
[ with that, his final worry - that Leon didn't feel as strongly as he did for him - has melted away, leaving nothing but pure, wound-up affection for each other. from here, there's nowhere for them to go but forward with each other. he's the one to lean in this time, kissing him with relief and excitement behind it. ]
[When Raihan kisses him again, the relief can be felt through the kiss. It makes its way into Leon directly and relaxes him in a way that words simply cannot. There was a brief moment of uncertainty- he said I love you, like, really Leon? This soon?- that's quelled in the wake of Raihan reciprocating his love, and with that...that's all there needed to be.
They love each other, and that's maybe something that's been true for much longer than either of them realized it. It's enough to make Leon laugh, a laugh that bubbles up and spills out of him through their kiss before he can control it, positively giddy. He doesn't even know yet how to process all of this other than feeling happy. So very, very happy. Nervous, anxious even, but happy.
His laughing forces their kiss to break for a moment as Leon reaches up to grip Raihan's face between his hands, his thumbs brushing over his cheekbones as he kisses the corner of his mouth, beneath one eye, his brow. Everywhere his lips can reach until he feels like he's suffered enough, leaving him staring back into those impossibly wide, golden eyes of his.
[ yes, really. if they had only just met, perhaps Raihan would have met a confession like that with some pause - thankfully for them, that's far from the case. they have ten years of friendship behind them; Leon knows him better than almost anyone else in his life, and he'd like to think the gesture is reciprocated. is it really "too soon" if you fall in love with someone you have so much history with?
before he can say anything else when their kiss breaks, Leon is attacking him with more affection. he's not about to refute any of it, and response in turn with wrapping his arms around him to hold him close as he dotes. it's overwhelming, but in an exhilarating way that makes him want more. ]
Dunno. I never planned this far ahead. [ but he shifts his hands, giving a squeeze to his well-trained waist. that might give something of an idea. ] We could... make up for lost time, maybe?
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The continued kissing that travels along his face causes Leon's eyes to fall half closed. As much as he's trying to track Raihan's every move without allowing himself to miss anything, it's just as tempting to close his eyes and simply feel the affection he's being given. It's different and new and nerve wracking but he doesn't want it to stop, either.
The breath he hadn't realized he'd been holding shudders its way out of him in a sigh, tilting his head into the hand still cradling it.]
Raihan...
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he trails a kiss to his upper neck before moving back up, nuzzling close to his ear as Leon had to him. is it revenge? maybe a little. ]
This okay?
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I...yeah, more than...
[It’s way more than okay. He honestly feels like he’d be fine with Raihan just kissing him sober, he doesn’t care how long it takes. Meanwhile, he’ll take advantage of the fact that Leon moved in at an angle that allows him to return the favor a little with a kiss against his cheekbone.]
Can’t really believe it’s happening, though.
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Yeah. [ it's all he'll allow himself for now. he wants to have this conversation when they're both fully present. ] Me either.
[ unable to keep himself away from his lips for too long, he pulls away just enough to kiss him properly again - less rushed this time, and quite affectionate with the way the hand in his hair gently tangles his locks between his fingers. with the way he kisses him, it's hard to assume that he hasn't been wanting this for some time. ]
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Another soft sound escapes Leon just seconds before his lips are sealed and he's quieted (mostly), content to settle into the pace of Raihan's slow, languid kissing.
It's enough to get Leon to relax even further, if that's possible, letting his hand shift from the back of Raihan's neck to instead cup the side of his face for a moment so he can feel the sharp slope of his jawline.
How long does it take to sober up is the next question on his mind, albeit a very distant one.]
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he breaks their kiss reluctantly, but not without a gentle, playful nip to his lower lip. he makes sure he stays close, too comfortable in Leon's hold to stray completely away from it. ]
You need to sober up. [ he sighs softly, squeezing the hand held in his. ] It's not that I don't believe you, it's just... you know.
[ it's not right. ]
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It's Leon's turn to sigh- far more dramatic than it would be if he were sober- but he's at least placated by the fact that Raihan is still nearby. The closeness is nice, even if they're not actively spending that kissing more.]
Yeah...yeah.
[His speech is nowhere near as slurred as it was, but he's still more than a little giddy, notable in the lilt in his tone and the way he can't seem to stop smiling either.]
What do you reckon we do until then...?
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I dunno, cuddle and watch a movie?
[ it's half joking, but it's also the best suggestion he has. the other options are sending Leon to bed to sleep it off like a petulant child, or just staring at each other awkwardly - neither sounds like a good option. ]
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That sounds like a right idea, actually.
[It isn't going to be long before the adrenaline that all of this has kicked up wears off, and it's highly likely Leon might actually just pass out on the couch. The sooner that happens, the better.]
Got anything good?
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he leans back a little more into the corner of the couch, hesitating only for a moment before deciding to extend an arm over Leon's shoulders to keep him reasonably close. he's sure that he can feel the way his heart is thumping in his chest, but it probably won't come as much of a surprise by now. ]
How about an old classic?
[ he boots up his streaming service of choice, scrolling down to his pick - the self-discovery story of the trials and tribulations of a pro athlete stuck in a rut in his career, brought back to the sport that made him famous by the rascally Sbugs Scorbunny and his animated friends to save the world from a villainous team of alien Pokémon from beyond the stars.
it's Space Jam. they're watching Space Jam. ]
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With Raihan making the move to wrap an arm around Leon's shoulders, the fact that something more is going on here has been heavily underlined. It's unlikely Leon is drunk enough to forget the events of this evening by morning, but should things happen to be hazy, their closeness will leave nothing to the imagination.
He wouldn't have it any other way.
Leon is quick to settle in against Raihan's side, leaning against him with his head once again resting against his shoulder. He can feel the hammering of his heart, but if anything it just makes him feel better about the way his own is racing uncontrollably. They're in good company when it comes to nerves.]
Why am I not surprised? I've lost count of how many times we've seen this one.
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Yeah, 'cuz it's a cinematic masterpiece. [ and he's being completely, utterly sincere about that. ] You heard they're making a sequel, right?
[ they chatter idly like that through the movie's runtime, soft and laid-back as they were before things had gotten complicated. the physical contact between them is the only reminder that there's more they have to discuss, but this is an oddly relaxing moment between them that gives Raihan some peace of mind - that if what he wants their relationship to be does come to fruition, that it won't actually change much of the dynamic between them. the idea almost sounds too good to be true. ]
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Leon makes it about a half hour into the movie before he stops talking, instead humming sounds of acknowledgement to let Raihan know he's listening. Minutes later even that stops as Leon lets sleep overtake him, his body relaxed and breathing even. He's easily pliable and probably won't complain to being moved if Raihan decides to try to usher him to bed.
The clock is ticking from here. Either things are destined to become so much more between them, or they'll both be in for a rude awakening once the haze of booze clears.]
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he feels the weight on his shoulder get heavier as Leon drifts into sleep, eventually looking down to see that he's dozed off. he had always seen an indescribable beauty in the other man's features, but they were particularly appreciable in the relaxation of sleep. it only reaffirms what he knows - he's fallen for him, hard. the next few hours will decide what that means for them.
he considers moving him, but he knows for a fact he isn't strong enough to carry him, which would mean rousing him from sleep. he looks so comfortable... it couldn't hurt to join him, so he lets his eyes fall shut. ]
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he checks his phone when he rouses, slightly sore from the position he had fallen asleep in. it's the middle of the night, and his flat is dark aside from the potlights still on in the kitchen. Leon is still against him, heavy and asleep - hopefully his movements to try and stretch don't disturb him. ]
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He might have continued to sleep on through the night if Raihan hadn't woken up before him, any slight movement on his part just enough to rouse him. His eyes open a sliver first, still heavy with sleep as his body fights to catch up with his waking mind. He's fortunate to not be waking up with a headache, but his mouth is dry...he could definitely use water before he winds up dehydrated. He swallows thickly a time or two, tempted to close his eyes again and let sleep once again overtake him...until he feels the steady rise and fall of the surface beneath him.
It all comes back in a trickle of memories as opposed to a flood as Leon wakes, the familiar buzz long gone now after sleeping. It feels like it could be morning, but with how dark it still is that's clearly not the case. It takes a moment for him to realize that Raihan shifting was what probably woke him up. Which means...
Leon leans back, enough so that he can look across (or, down) at Raihan and realize just how close they ended up. For a moment, his mouth works soundlessly, as if he's trying to find words that won't come. It's not hesitation stopping him; he just wants to say it right.]
Raihan.
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he pauses when he feels Leon begin to move, eyes trained on him to see what he does next. soon enough, he's looking up at Leon, the glazed, drunken look in his eyes having disappeared with sleep. he remembers their promise, and though he suddenly feels like he's frozen in place, he returns his gaze with a lazy smile. ]
Hey.
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Leon shifts to rest his hand against Raihan's chest, his fingers pressing in lightly against the material of his jacket. It's difficult to make his features out clearly in the semi-gloom of his place, but what little light is offered gives Leon plenty to work with. He's just as handsome as he ever was with a perpetual air of confidence that even Leon himself often felt jealous of.
He swallows again before sitting up a little further, his hair fanning out over his shoulders in long locks that trail against Raihan's front.]
Raihan...what I said earlier-
[Leon blinks hard, his eyes clear and his words coherent...though they aren't quite steady. There's a subtle tremor in his cadence, but it's not enough to stop him.]
I meant every word. I just wish it didn't take a beer for me to tell you.
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when they're close like this, he can see the features that he loves about Leon from a new perspective - the flecks of hazel in his golden eyes, his impossibly long lashes, tiny bits of stubble around the curves of where he usually shaves. he's sure that if he tried to list all of the things he admired about Leon, both physically and emotionally, he'd be able to talk for hours. ]
At least you managed to work up the nerve to say something... That's more than I can say for myself.
[ he chuckles with a self-deprecating edge, eyes casting down for a moment before he reaches out to tuck a loose strand of that long purple hair behind Leon's ear. ]
Do you have any idea how long I've fancied you for?
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Absolutely...no idea.
[WHICH...probably comes as little surprise. Leon would lose his own head if it weren't attached to his shoulders, and being quick on the uptake when it comes to subtle hints or- Arceus forbid- flirting is a little beyond him. Raihan obviously knew this, given how many years he's just existed in this bubble of liking Leon secretely.]
But I can imagine you must have felt the same way I did. ...do, in some ways.
[That deserves an explanation, which is at least short coming as Leon forces himself to hold Raihan's gaze, even if he's fairly sure his own is as vulnerable as it's ever been.]
That things would be different. ...or...change, and. Not...work, you know?
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[ he doesn't sound particularly torn up about it - it's as he expected, and that's fine. with the foundations of their relationship having been built on their rivalry and their daily lives preoccupied with day-to-day responsibilities, paired with Leon's general airheadedness about things aside from battling, he hadn't expected Leon to pay mind to him in such a way. little did he know, the opposite was true.
he doesn't mind the vulnerability he sees in Leon's eyes. he cherishes it, in fact - it's a reassurance that both of them are equally delicate in this moment, and that's something that neither of them are used to being. ]
Didn't want to risk losing you, mostly. [ he smiles softly, tinged with melancholy. ] You're my friend first.
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Now, though? Things have changed. And Leon makes dead-sure Raihan can see for himself how serious he's being when he continues, his brow furrowing.]
I would sooner hang up my title as a trainer for good than leave you, Raihan. You mean so much to me that...I can't even imagine a world like that.
[His fingers tighten their grip on the loose material of his clothing, his heart making a sudden bid for his throat. Well, he wasn't emotional before and was doing a damn good job of holding it back but now the emotions are trying to eke out of him. He takes a breath- heavy and slightly shuddering- before he leans in to press a firm kiss to Raihan's lips.
He doesn't speak again until they've parted, their breath mingling.]
I love you, Rai. I'm not going anywhere. Ever.
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Even if I was a brooding idiot that couldn't talk to his crush about how he felt?
[ his smile widens as he takes in what Leon had said, but he doesn't have much time to do so before he's being kissed by him. though it takes him by surprise, it's only a split moment before he melts into it, eyes lowering as he returns the gesture. the Beautifly in his stomach are fluttering up a storm - even more so than their first kiss. ]
Yeah... neither am I. [ he tilts their foreheads together, his smile now ear-to-ear. ] I love you, too.
[ with that, his final worry - that Leon didn't feel as strongly as he did for him - has melted away, leaving nothing but pure, wound-up affection for each other. from here, there's nowhere for them to go but forward with each other. he's the one to lean in this time, kissing him with relief and excitement behind it. ]
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They love each other, and that's maybe something that's been true for much longer than either of them realized it. It's enough to make Leon laugh, a laugh that bubbles up and spills out of him through their kiss before he can control it, positively giddy. He doesn't even know yet how to process all of this other than feeling happy. So very, very happy. Nervous, anxious even, but happy.
His laughing forces their kiss to break for a moment as Leon reaches up to grip Raihan's face between his hands, his thumbs brushing over his cheekbones as he kisses the corner of his mouth, beneath one eye, his brow. Everywhere his lips can reach until he feels like he's suffered enough, leaving him staring back into those impossibly wide, golden eyes of his.
Breathless, he asks:]
...what happens now?
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before he can say anything else when their kiss breaks, Leon is attacking him with more affection. he's not about to refute any of it, and response in turn with wrapping his arms around him to hold him close as he dotes. it's overwhelming, but in an exhilarating way that makes him want more. ]
Dunno. I never planned this far ahead. [ but he shifts his hands, giving a squeeze to his well-trained waist. that might give something of an idea. ] We could... make up for lost time, maybe?
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me realizing I dont have nearly enough icons for this
i barely do and almost all my slots are full LOL
THATS JUST HOW IT BE
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i'm sorry for the late FORGIVE ME
NO WORRIES FRIEND
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I am SO sorry this is so late, work has been eating me alive
oh big same LOL
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